Well, i constantly have an urge to kill people. I would never hurt an animal but when I walk past someone on the street I have a short fantasy about stabbing them to death, bashing their skull in, or kidnapping them and playing a 'game' with them where their hope is crushed and they die. Just wondering if anyone would be willing to point me towards an online psychologist that won't cost money or have my parents know because I NEVER want them to find out and if any psychologists are reading this and would be willing to help me then I would greatly appreciate it.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, I would also greatly appreciate any words of advice ANYONE has.

Oh should've mentioned this earlier but if anyone has any online site that may provide free counselling then that would be appreciated. I was thinking of doing to counselling thing on eheadspace but haven't decided yet.

Also the only thing stopping me from hurting someone or hurting myself is because I don't want to hurt my family anymore then they have already been hurt after my brother died 5 years ago.