Hi guys I'm back to get more advice. I can't call or tell anyone about my problems so you guys have been a great help. Thanks ahead of time.

If you guys have seen my other ?s you know I'm obviously in a toxic relationship/friendship with a girl I used to date. My heart and everything else is so vested in her its too hard to let go. It's an absolute horrible feeling. It hurts to love someone and care so much for someone you'd do anything for but you know deep down they wouldn't do it for you.

No matter how hard I try to make peace and keep things peaceful between me and this woman everything gets messed up. She told me she wanted to hang out with me this weekend. But went ape sh*t on me the last night and kept talking to me in a loud tone and kept interrupting me when I tried to speak. I got so angry I yelled and said STFU and she hung up the phone on me. She texted me said she needed space. Well all day I felt bad for cussing her I texted her that I was sorry and asked if we could talk. She texted back and forth with me I thought everything was okay. I tried calling her she rejected my calls so I texted more. She said she was done with my drama and I wasn't just pushing her away I shoved her away and that she had a bad day and I wouldn't leave her alone. I had no.idea I was bothering her and now she said she's done and never wants to talk to me again. I mean if you love or care for someone how can she treat me so badly? All I have ever done since we broke up and every before was to be there for her and love her unconditionally. Why are people such users and evil people? I'm seriously a very very nice guy. I have many friends and people live to be around me but when it comes to her its like I'm nothing but I doormat and a piece of sh*t. I have no idea why I even endure this. I wish I could get out of this feeling of helplessness.