The past 3 weeks I've been dealing with all the emotions that come after a breakup, denial, guilt, sadness, anger, etc. Finally, I decided to let it go. All those feelings have to do with my desire to change and control the situation. I realized that I can't change the situation. I do believe that if we're meant to be we'll end up together, and if not everything has worked out for the best.

But, I saw him on accident today. Then he talked to me for almost 2 hours. He hugged me as I was leaving and told me to let him know that I got home okay. When we were talking I sat far across from him, and far away. I wanted to sit right next to him. When he hugged me I didn't want to let go.

I did some guided meditation last night because I'm trying to figure out healthy ways to deal with stress, and one thing I realized is that I 100% do want to be with him. I don't want it to be over.

So, what? Was I lying? I thought I'd let go. Does this mean that this is something I don't have control over? I thought I did. I'm confused. It took everything I had not to call, text, or email him tonight telling him everything.

History: We were together for 3 years. I dumped him because he didn't know if he could commit.