I don't know how she really feels about me. We've know each other for 8 months and we are what I like to believe friends. She's let me into her life in a way no one else ever has. I've learned so much from just knowing her and being around her. She makes feel good about myself and belief I have purpose. I know she's not ready to date, she went through a divorce last year so she's still broken about it. I'm not looking to get with her right away, I could say I'm just looking for a chance when she is ready. I want to explain to her how I feel about her. I've told her many times I'm glad I met her and I really appreciate her. But the fact is, I've grown to fallen in love with her. I know she's taken me out of my comfort zone many times. She invites me to be around her friends and to know them. Thing is though, before I've learned of her being married, I tried to get her to go do something with me. Coffee, ice cream, concerts. None ever worked. But now I think I understand why. I want to believe its cause she's not ready to date right now so she doesn't want to take a chance. It's easy to get hurt again I know all too well. She invited me to go to her church several times now and I'm getting something out of it. But the last thing I texted her was how me and her don't get to really talk much, just the two of us. She responded by didnt say yes or no about it. I'm gonna see her again Sunday evening at a Thanksgiving dinner, not sure what to expect, but I feel I need to say something to her. I'm not going to throw in all my affections, like I'm madly in love with her and blah blah blah. I want it to be simple and just explain how she's made me feel sense I met her. I don't like the idea of love at first sight, which didn't really happen with her. She came to me first and introduced herself to me. And from there it was all her, coming to me. I didn't push away I liked her, so sure I wanted to get to know her. I fought it pretty hard cause my plans were to move to California. I didn't want to get that close to someone. Fact is, it happened, she has said she didn't want me to stay out there, she makes me feel like she wants me here, but I don't know why? Seems to simple that it's cause she likes me or because she's just that nice of a person. I wanna believe she wants to get to know me more and possibly have something grow, truth is we are pretty different in so many ways. I'm 10 years older than her, my life wasn't much of an complishment and I've had to start over basically. But she does give me that motivation and desire to do something with myself, to appear better in her eyes